Originally posted on CaringBridge on November 25, 2014 10:08pm
It's the question everyone asks...how are you doing? It's a hard question to answer. When the employee at the store asks, I say I'm good. When an acquaintance asks, I say I'm hanging in there. When a friend asks, I say I'm okay at this particular moment. When my husband asks, I say I'm pissed off.
The truth is that the answer changes day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. At one particular moment I may be just fine - smiling, laughing, enjoying time with family and friends. At another moment my heart may be torn apart as I watch a dad (or uncle or cousin or friend...I shouldn't assume!) play with his young infant at the store.
In my new reality, I am riding a roller coaster of emotion, and I'm riding it in the dark...never knowing what's around the bend. So don't be offended if I say I'm fine. It doesn't mean that I'm brushing you off or lying. It just means that at the moment you asked, I am fine.
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