Sleep

Sleep these days is a funny thing. I am tired all the time. It doesn't matter if I slept 2 hours or 10 hours, I still wake up tired. And then there are nights like last night, when I am exhausted, but can't quite seem to get myself to sleep. So I lay down to take a nap and can't fall asleep. It's a vicious cycle.

I'm sure being tired all the time contributes to my lack of patience and my cranky moods, and I'm sure it stems from the same problems. I am not physically hurt, but emotional hurt takes just as much energy, if not more, for recovery. I can still do daily tasks, and I'll soon be back at work. My "injury" does not prevent any of this. But my "injury" does prevent me from feeling fully involved in my own life. I feel like I'm watching myself live my life rather than actively participating. And the constant exhaustion just exacerbates these feelings.

As with any physical ailment, healing takes time. Grief is not something that you just get over, but something you have to work through. Unfortunately, there's no set prescription or regimen that will fix this. But things like this blog, the support of everyone around us, support groups, and, of course, time, we will find our way through this journey. We will be different people than we were before, but we will find happiness and peace again.