To-do's

I've made myself a to-do list of things I'd like to get done before I go back to work in January. And I've even been crossing things off. It feels good to be productive...to get some things done that have been on my to-do list for awhile (a couple have been on there since even before Henry was born!)

One of the biggest items is cleaning. We've neglected this task (understandably so.) It does feel good to have a few clean rooms. As I go, I've also been organizing, picking up, and putting things away. This includes some of Henry's things. His little bathtub and toys are no longer in the bathroom. The counter isn't covered with drying racks full of bottles. His car seat and diaper bags are no longer cluttering up the dining room. For someone who really dislikes clutter, this would seem to be an improvement. But I miss the clutter that goes along with having a baby. I miss running into his jumper that hung between the living and dining rooms. I miss stubbing my toe on his high chair. I miss not being able to open the bathroom door all the way because his bathtub is in the way. Clutter seemed so much less of a problem when Henry was alive. 

I'll continue working through my to do list, and will continue putting things away. Although it makes me sad to put Henry's things away, each thing I put away brings back happy memories. And those memories will not get put away, but will live on forever in our hearts.