Rough Day

Today is a rough day for me. I'm not sure exactly why. By that, I mean that I'm not sure exactly why today is tougher than any other day the last couple months. Maybe reality is starting to sink in a little deeper. Maybe it is the looming "going back to work" day. Maybe it's the start of a new year that is nothing like I was expecting just a few short months ago. Whatever it is, the hole in my heart seems a little bigger, a little more painful today. 

I'm still hopeful. I'm hopeful that going back to work will give me a focus, and that the kids will provide distraction. I'm hopeful that even though the year isn't starting out like I thought that it will still bring happiness in some way or another. I'm hopeful that we can work to raise awareness of childhood cancer and do things to help our community. 

Today I will let myself be sad. Perhaps tomorrow will be better, perhaps not. But I know that I can navigate these rough days. That is the strength that Henry showed me I have.