Staff Development Days

Today wasn't a day off for me, like it was for many. However, it was a student-free day. The crazy thing, it was harder to make it through today than it is to teach all day. Today was made up of meetings and trainings. This kept me "busy," but left plenty of time for my mind to wander. And much of our meetings and trainings were focused on how to improve our teaching and ideas for innovation and incorporating new standards. It's nice to be able to have time to focus on the craft of teaching, but today it was just a little much for me. These days I feel like I'm lucky just to make it into the building, and to teach semi-coherent lessons. I can't look much past tomorrow without having slight panic attacks. So although eventually I will put this information to use, it won't be right away.

The other tough thing today was that I've missed most of our staff development days this year. One of our first ones Henry was home sick with a little bug, and then the last couple he was sick and then I was still off. As with so so many things, I'm reminded of what my life used to be...happy and fulfilled...and of what my life is for this moment in time...empty and restless. But I made it through another first...my first staff development day back to work. Baby steps, one day at a time...that's all I can expect of myself, and I'm proud I made it through another day.