Thankfully, I'm feeling slightly more human this evening (for the time being at least.) Some of the things that have helped my hurting soul:
--My husband. He is with me every step of this crazy journey. He lets me cry...lets me scream and wail...lets me be when I need space. He puts on movies and shows that make me smile and laugh, even if just temporarily. (Today was Deadpool...complete with a quote that has inspired a future blog post.) And he gets me coffee and other treats to lift my spirits.
--Some good friends who have let me vent, and who have validated my feelings. It's nice to know that no matter how alone I feel, I'm never truly alone. You ladies know who you are, and your willingness to listen helps more than you know!
--My sister...who reminds me that some of our craziness runs in the family! And my dad who already has me dreaming of escape to Colorado.
--My puppies. Earlier today I had one in my lap and one laying against me. The physical weight and warmth provided comfort, and the snuggles made me feel loved. Charlie especially has been keeping pretty close tabs on me...following me and snuggling me wherever I happen to end up.
--A good book. My brother-in-law got me stared on this Stephen King series (well...a few years ago...I'm a little slow!) and today that crazy world of his has allowed me to escape this crazy world of mine. (Trent, I'm on book five...slowly but surely I'm getting there!)
--My sunroom...my favorite place in the house (next to my bed at bedtime.) The sun is shining, the breeze is breezing through...the dogs are in and out...it's my own little piece of paradise.
I know there are more tough days to come, and that for awhile there will probably be more tough days than easy ones. But I also know that one day, the tough days will decrease in number and in intensity, and that I will feel good more than bad. In the meantime, I will lean on those who love me, I will escape to my happy places, and I'll let the tears flow as needed.
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