Spent...

Spent...that's how I feel this morning.  I feel as though I have spent every little bit of my energy, and I have nothing in the bank.  I am physically and emotionally exhausted...I am anxious (waiting patiently is not my strong suit)...and I think most of all I am just sad.  I miss my boys, I am sad for our little jelly bean (as we are calling her for now), and my body is still processing what's going on (slowly, of course.)  I've been reading things that say you need to let the feelings come and go (or just come, for now)...you need to feel the feelings...and I know that's all good advice, but it's the feelings that have me feeling spent!

So, that's the bad news.  But, you know me, I have to find some glimmer of good.  And today I have several glimmers.  I get to meet my friends for coffee before school - two good things!  We used to meet every Friday morning, but then life, and babies, got in the way.  So this is a special treat.  And after school I get to spend some time with all of my favorite librarians and techs, followed by a special event with our support group.  Now, you might think, that all of that along with a full work day, seems like an awful lot of peopling for someone who likes her down time...and you're right.  But the good news on that front is that I have nothing on my calendar for the rest of the weekend...so I can just take care of ME!  And then, there are only four more wake-ups until a whole glorious summer of taking care of me.  So even though I am completely spent, and exhausted, and sad, there is a glimmer on the horizon, and I know I can make it that far, at least!