Heartbreak...

We went back to the doctor today, and when they did the ultrasound the baby no longer had a heartbeat.  We decided to head home, and let nature take its course.  We are, of course, heartbroken, but there are some positives that have come out of this experience:

1.  We were able to get pregnant, and we got to see our little peanut's heartbeat!  That is one of those experiences that no matter how stressful the circumstances remind us of how precious life is.

2.  We got to work with a wonderful doctor.  We have loved ALL of the doctors we've worked with through our pregnancies.  This one has been so compassionate, and goes above and beyond to make sure we are taken care of.

3.  We have an army of love and support surrounding us.  As life goes on, sometimes we wonder how many people still follow our journey.  We have no concerns about that anymore, that's for sure!

4.  My health has not and most likely will not be affected, nor will our ability to get pregnant again.  This is just (statistically speaking, not emotionally) one out of every four pregnancies that end in miscarriage for unknown genetic reasons. 

5.  I like to think that this peanut will join her (for some reason we just assumed she was a she!) brothers in Heaven, and they of course will welcome her with open arms.  When the three of them decide the time is right, they will send their newest sibling our way.

We are incredibly sad today, and that's okay.  We will probably be sad for a bit of time, and that's okay too.  But we also know that we are strong, and that we will come through this experience stronger than ever!  We, of course, would appreciate any thoughts and prayers sent our way for strength and healing.  Thank you for ALL of the support already sent our way...we are beyond blessed.