The happy and sad of moving

Today Tim and I finished cleaning out old house. As we drove away, I found myself feeling very mixed emotions. I am quite relieved to have it empty and clean, ready for its new tenants. And I'm happy to be making a fresh start. But I'm also a little sad to close that chapter of our lives. So I decided tonight I'd share a bit of these mixed emotions.

I always like to start with the "bad" and end with the good. What makes me sad: This was our first house...our first home as a married couple. We found this house right after we lost Brady. Tim had actually been watching for this house, and called about it while we were still in the hospital. Getting the house gave us something to look forward to, at a time when we really needed that! (A little déjà vu...) We went through a lot in that house...grieving Brady, grieving my mom, anxiously trying to get Henry here, and then getting to know Henry and learning how to go about this crazy thing called parenting. Then, of course, trying to find our way after losing Henry. Many tears were shed in that house, but many good times were had as well. I am happy to leave the tears behind, and bring the happy memories with us.

What makes me happy: Tim and I are now homeowners...we can truly make this house our home. We both already feel more comfortable in this house than I think we ever really did in the old house. True...we are now fully responsible for this house, and anything that might go wrong. But that also means that any improvements we want to make we can. We fit comfortably in this house, and we have plenty of room to grow as well. 

Now that the old house is done, we can really work on getting settled in. We can get the rest of the boxes unpacked, and then get pictures on the walls...get some memories up in this house to keep with us as we make new ones.