Conflicted

These days I am feeling so many conflicting emotions...it almost feels like I'm going a little crazy!  My biggest conflict is probably the house.  I am so excited to move into our new house...make it OURS.  We went over there to do some laundry yesterday and watched a movie in the "man" cave.  It was so nice to relax and enjoy the space.  It's been fun to slowly make it feel more like ours...painting, picking out new furniture, making the sunroom my sanctuary...yet with every step I feel Henry missing.  I picture him snuggled up on the cuddler piece of our new couch, watching the movie with us.  I picture him crawling around, exploring his new home.  I picture me getting cranky, trying to pack and be productive with an almost-eleven month old...I know it would be a different experience!  We are taking Henry with us, of course, but not the way I imagined.

Then today is our second anniversary.  I am so thankful to be married to such a wonderful man.  Tim is caring, kind, considerate, patient (for the most part!), helpful, dedicated, passionate...so many wonderful words describe my husband.  He has been my rock.  Our two years of marriage have had huge ups and downs.  I honestly can't think of a better person to have by my side...keeping me going...loving me.  I know that we have had happy times in our marriage, and we will have many more.  And I have to look at the sad times as times that brought us even closer together.  I hope that I bring my husband as much happiness and he brings me.

To celebrate our anniversary, here is a picture from our wedding day.  This was when we found out that Brady was a boy.  We had his ultrasound a few days before, but we had them seal the gender and we locked it in the safe!  Neither of us peeked, so we got to find out just after our nuptials, with our families, that our baby was a boy.  That, and, of course, the fact that I got to marry Tim, made that one of the best days of my life <3