These reminders are bittersweet. I absolutely love seeing pictures of mamas and daddies (and grandmas, grandpas, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends...) with new babies! My heart is happy for those families, and I can get a baby fix without being too much of a creeper. But it also tugs at my heartstrings, knowing that just a year ago I was the one snuggling a new baby, and plastering pictures all over Facebook! (But seriously...to all those new parents who happen to follow our story, keep posting those pictures - I truly do love seeing them!) I know that for the foreseeable future, Timehop will make me happy and sad. I enjoy the memories, but miss making new ones. The doctor's office did get a (polite) phone call, asking to be taken off that automatic call list. It was a bit strange...Henry hasn't seen that doctor since probably his 4 month check up, when Blue Cross Blue Shield and CHI divorced. And we haven't had any other reminder phone calls. The lady who answered my call was very nice and apologetic, and I imagine it won't happen again. But it still left me shaky. Finally, the tulips in the yard brought a big smile to my face. I hadn't noticed them before...in fact, I thought that area of the yard, like much of our backyard, was weeds. Now, it seems to me that Henry has claimed his spot in the yard, and sent a smile to his mom and dad.
In the end, I am thankful for these reminders, bittersweet though they are. It means that my little boy will not be forgotten, that he has burrowed into my heart and claimed his spot! Hopefully there are other children in our future, but they will never replace Henry (or Brady)...they will be able to tell the story of their sweet older brother, who brought love and laughter to the lives of so many.
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