Blanket Fort

Today I woke up, and I was not too excited to get out of bed.  When Tim got home from the gym, I told him I wanted to hide out in my blanket fort today.  Some days, being an adult is almost more than I can handle.  And this week has had more than its normal share of those days.  I knew Tuesday, Henry's birthday, would be hard.  But I didn't think about how it would exhaust me - physically, mentally and emotionally.  I didn't realize that I would wake up on Wednesday morning feeling like an empty shell.  I didn't realize that I would sleep better than I have in a long time on Wednesday night, and still wake up feeling tired on Thursday.  I didn't know that I would feel more normal on Thursday, only to wake up on Friday wanting to make my blanket fort.  It has definitely been a week of ups and downs.

The good thing is that I know that these feelings will not last forever.  I know the pain will always be there, but that it will dull and become much more bearable.  I know that nothing will ever replace the two boys we have in Heaven, but that we are taking steps forward. So today, at least, I'll be a grown up (grudgingly!) and enjoy the fact that it's Friday.