Here it is, the start of another school year. What a difference a year makes. Last year, I was dreading dropping you off at Carrie's. Not because I worried you wouldn't be okay, but because I worried I wouldn't be okay! I had to go from spending every moment with you to just having evenings, weekends and days of to play, snuggle, and watch you grow.
How I wish I had the same dread this year...the dread of missing that special time with you. Instead, I dread returning to work in a world without you in it. Your picture is everywhere at work...my desk, the window, even my computer background. I tell everyone who will listen all about our special monster...even if they've heard the same stories time and again. I think about you as I interact with students...and how each one of them are as special to someone as you are to me. But I still wish with every fiber of my being that you were here with me, rather than in my heart and my memories.
I love being your mommy-it's the best job I've ever had. In your short time with us, you taught me more than I could have ever imagined. You taught me about love, strength, patience, perseverance, and joy. You showed me how strong I can be, and how I can use that strength to help not only myself but also others. You have helped me understand so much more about myself and this world we live in. You are now and forever my monster, and my hero. I hope that I can make you proud as we enter another school year. I love you, Henry. Give your brother and Nana a hug from me.
Love ALWAYS,
Mommy
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