Good news...not so good news

We've had some news we've been waiting a little while to share...waiting for the right time...to know everything was going as planned.  As you may guess, we found out several weeks ago that, after a year of trying, we are pregnant!  We have been so excited for this new little miracle, and we've had a hard time keeping it to ourselves.  We've been planning cute little announcements to share the news, and have just been waiting for that doctor's appointment to confirm all is well.

As you may also have guessed, we have not had that "all is well" doctor's appointment yet.  Last week, we met with our doctor.  They did an ultrasound to confirm the pregnancy, and were unable to find a heartbeat.  That was a little alarming, but not end-of-the-world alarming, as the baby was measuring a week smaller than what we had estimated.  If the baby was, in fact, that little, we wouldn't expect to see a heartbeat yet.  So we were sent on our merry way, with an appointment for this week, at which hopefully we would get the news we were praying for.

That appointment was today.  The good news is they DID see a heartbeat!  No matter how many times you see a little peanut on the ultrasound, that first heartbeat is pretty darn amazing.  Unfortunately, this heartbeat also came with some concerns.  It was a little slower than it should be.  Also, the baby showed less growth over the last 10 days than one would expect.  There were a couple other concerns as well.  Our doctor is "cautiously optimistic."  He said had we not seen the heartbeat, he would have been confident that this pregnancy would end in miscarriage.  Since we have a heartbeat, there is a possibility that baby could take off growing and everything could be fine.  That puts us in a wait-and-see pattern, which if you know Tim and I at all, you know is not our favorite!  This is definitely not the news we were hoping for, but we are trying to stay hopeful and positive.

We know that many couples wait until the end of the first trimester, when everything should be good to go, to share pregnancy news, which is perfectly fine.  We decided to share this news now, not for pity or poor us, but because we could use the support.  When we're walking around work like a zombie, now you know why.  If we're short tempered, or slow to respond to messages, now you know why.  Through this blog and our journey, we have found that we need to share the good and the bad, and that we need to face the good and the bad head on.  While we aren't asking for pity, we could definitely use any positive thoughts, prayers, juju, or whatever you believe sent our way.