We have spent the last two years putting the pieces back together...learning how to live again...figuring out how to find joy and happiness in everyday life. We have had good days, bad days, and everything in between. We miss our monster every second of every day. Some moments, a gentle memory tugs at our heart; other moments the memories knock the wind out of us.
Now, on the eve of Henry's official diagnosis and the start of his frantic twelve-day fight, I want to remember him. I don't want to remember the Henry that lay in the hospital bed, needing machines to help him breathe, help his kidneys, and even to keep him warm. I want to remember the Henry that stole my heart with his very first breath. I want to remember the Henry that was almost always smiling...that was up for anything...and that loved everyone. And this is where I ask for your help.
I have renamed the next twelve days Monsters-Giving. (You may remember last year it was the twelve days of giving...and I realized that sounded so familiar because that's what Ellen uses on her show!) Over the next twelve days, Tim and I will be reaching out to people we know could use a little smile...whether these are people we know or not. We want to find joy in the next twelve days rather than simply wallowing in our sorrow. We don't do this to hide from our grief, but rather to embrace it. We do this to remember our sweet monster, and to share the smiles that he surely would be doling out were he still here with us.
So over the next twelve days, if it so strikes you, send someone a smile. Give someone a call that you haven't talked to in too long...pay for someone's coffee...send a note to your mom...your dad...your sister...your friend. Donate blood or platelets to help those who are fighting. It doesn't have to cost money, and it doesn't have to be a grand gesture. Help us honor and remember the sweet little monster who knew nothing but love. #monstersgiving #allheknewwaslove #amonstersmission #lookatmamausinghashtages
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