I'm not sure the exact cause for this latest funk, but I'm guessing it has something to do with summer being over and having to be an adult on a daily basis instead of just intermittently. Going back to work after a long break is always hard...I'm used to doing what I want to do when I do it, and now my schedule is dictated. I can't get up, enjoy my coffee, get my workout in just before lunch. I can't spend the morning reading in my (newly improved) sunroom. Instead I have to get up to an alarm (gasp!), get myself ready (which involves almost daily fighting with myself over what to wear), have a lunch packed, make my coffee to go, and get to work. Then at work I have to people...all...day...long. Don't get me wrong, I work with amazing people. But when I get tired or overwhelmed, I can no longer retreat to my bed or my sunroom...I have to keep plugging along. And when I get home, there's just about enough time to do my workout, shower, make dinner, clean up dinner, and get to bed.
This transition has always been a little tricky...I am one that craves down time and alone time. And with the start of school, both of those are in short supply. To make it even a little trickier, the first few weekends of this school year happen to be pretty busy, so I'm not getting to recharge my batteries. I will get used to the routine, I will get this new position at work figured out (maybe not until the end of the year, but I'll get it!), and life will settle down a bit. And in the meantime, I'm trying to keep taking care of myself...getting my workouts in, eating the healthy-ish meals at home like planned, getting plenty of sleep (even if I wake up feeling like I didn't get any at all!), and hacking away at my to-do list - at home and at school.
And then, when I get extra super duper cranky, like I was this morning (again, for no apparent reason), pictures like this pop up to make me smile and gives me a brief respite from my moods. I hope maybe it will make you smile today too!
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